# 50

THEN AND NOW

or 

Harv Channels Dr. Seuss

..sometimes i call a friend

when my mind is drunk driving

and my heart’s in a wreck,

deep inside i believe

that no one will listen,

no one did way back when,

when i needed a friend..

but i push through and call you,

hear your voice and find my own

racing quickly

because deep inside i still believe

 I’m not worthy of attention,

way back when, 

when dad was gone

and mom was always in a rush,

my words would speed and plead

to connect with anyone.

when asked how he was, my Dad would always say,

“I could complain but what good would it do me today?”

so I learned to hold my breath and my pain,

Afraid that I’d just be pitied and shamed,

Words never heard

way back when when I needed them:

Compassion, forgiveness, acceptance, peace,

Prayer, God and feelings, surrender, release..

But that was back then 

Here and now is today,

i have friends that will listen

to what i might say,

when my mind feels crumpled

and my heart’s turning gray,

They remind me to love me,

and that I am okay-

Thanks Chris..