ILLUMINATE

LOSING THE LIGHT

I haven’t said a wise word 

or written a fine line,

in a long time.

Disconnected,

I am falling from light,

falling from that great height

into an abyss of uncertainty,

fear and self recrimination.

I keep dusting off old medals 

to reduce the amount of shame I feel,

to remind myself that at times I shine,

It encourages me, when I’m lost on the edge 

of my own darkness,

afraid to negotiate the journey

down yet another unknown road.

afraid of discomfort,

afraid of control,

afraid to let go.

I cling to the edge of faith,

defying authority,

resisting humility,

admitting my neediness

I reach out for another’s holy hand.

 Afraid to lose my self

and yet, 

afraid to find myself

I make excuses

to continue playing safe and small.

Admitting this here

is a step through the fear.

I want to live from largeness,

I want to live in and from light,

no longer hiding in shadows 

of my own making.

This world is dark with secrets,

I choose to try

to tell my truth and, 

...Illuminate.

looking good

Looking Good

The Guest doesn’t care what time you think it is, 

or if you are asleep,

and believe you need your rest, 

because you have to work tomorrow.

Work at what?

The guest knows exactly what time it is; 

it is time to wake up 

to the one thing you need to know

which is, 

who you really are.

Dark parts: 

enemies were sent to teach you

how to embrace the unlovable

shadows of your self.

Become whole.

The peace you make with your self

will change this troubled world

into a playground of delight.

What we look like to the world means nothing.

What the world looks like to us

is all that matters..