6312                                                                           Prayer for Wholeness

in my marriage i got terrific support to work toward those goals that my wife chose for me; the goals I allowed her to choose because I was so lost from myself that I needed rescuing. I needed the hand of the good mother; direction and nurturing and I got that. I got that from my wife. 

What I never got and what I see now I am responsible for either getting or continuing not to get, is support to get to what my own goals are. My passion, my path. I need help in keeping what is truly important to me in sight. Then I need help in the form of encouragement which can look many different ways. 

I have to shut up those voices in my head that recreate self doubt time and time again. I need help to do this. Self defeating voices; beliefs in my own inadequacy as a hero. My own hero. I am so very tired of making progress and yet falling short, failing time and time again. 

God. I pray to be done with my resistance to the light and to your will for me which is to be all that I can be as a servant of your light and love. Please give me the strength, the courage, the single minded ness required to stay on course, to resist the seductions of my lesser selves. Help me to brave the world by being exactly true to who i really am; a pure and loving tender soul, a child of the light. A compassionate open hearted man who is willing to express his deepest truths without fearing the judgements and condemnations and rejection of others. Please come into me and fill me with myself. So that I may be complete and without the desperate unending need for support from others. Just you and me God. Let’s finally tie the knot; let’s tie it and be tangled up in divinity in such a way that I can not loosen it. make this so that I can never again be freed from the freedom only you can provide.

Amen-